Dear Faith, I’ve Been Living Off Raspberry Jelly Uncrustables For Three Weeks

I’ve been living off raspberry jelly uncrustables for three weeks. I don’t know what it is, but I’ve never been one to remember to take care of myself. I live alone and I Cannot get myself to cook everyday, so my options are 1) eat leftovers that my family so graciously packs for me to take back to my apartment, 2) order food from a nearby restaurant, or 3) eat another uncrustable sandwich. Guess which one I choose~

I truly don’t know if I’m meant to live alone. I love the freedom and peace I get by having my own place, but I’m such a social person and I’ve accidentally become a recluse. It doesn’t help that I have a full time job that absolutely wipes me out, meaning what little free time I have after work is spent Recovering from working around people all day. THIS IS SO DEPRESSING I’M SORRY.

I’ve been thinking about so many things lately. Lots of introspection going on in this one bedroom apartment. Should I put myself out there? How am I meant to put myself out there if I don’t have the time to Do things outside of work? Am I ever meant to be in a relationship? (I blame all these romance dramas for that one) Anyway, I don’t actually know the answers to any of these, but I’m trying to get used to being outside my apartment daily for work, so progress is being made (I think).

Enough depressing ramblings.. guess what I’ve been doing in my free time~ WATCHING DRAMAS (who’s surprised) I’ve found that in order to keep my sanity while working a full time job, I Need to spend time watching my silly little shows. Since the last Penpal letter, I’ve finished/watched:

★ Oshi no Ko – a revenge story that does a deep dive into the darker parts of the idol industry

so unique and FUNNNN and the cinematography is gorg

★ Our Youth – a love story between a student at the top of his class and his delinquent classmate

peak romance like HELLOOOO

★ Cherry Magic (Thai remake) – if you’re a virgin at 30, you can read minds LMFAOOOO tell me why the thai remake absolutely BODIED the original japanese adaptation… might just be because I don’t like Eiji Akaso but I ADORE Tay Tawan sorry……..

tay tawan...... woof

★ Smells Like Green Spirit – a student at a school in rural Japan likes to crossdress and is bullied for his long hair, but finds out one of his bullies is closeted gay and possibly trans and they become friends (I JUST finished this and it made me cry bro…)

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★ ThamePo: Heart That Skips a Beat – a director is tasked with filming a documentary for a failing boy group’s last concert but ends up falling for the group’s leader (this one’s airing right now and it got me SO bad)

i love idol dramas give me More please

I know it’s absolutely insane how many dramas I’ve watched within a month but I am COPING!!!!! I kinda miss being unemployed… Who Said That……

I desperately need the sun to start setting later by the way… Early sunsets are beating my ASS!!!!! I do get to see the sunset from my desk though, so I kinda win so much. I need to remind myself to look out the window more.

This past month, while being completely overrun with my drama binge, has also given me some new music…

Absolutely in love with everything Doechii’s doing right now, I watch any and every video I come across. Her stage presence is INSANE.

One of my favorite artists, carwash, has launched yet Another music alter ego in the form of Great white shark and his song A melted Snowman is so pretty 🙁

And of course I’m still on my Wild Blue grind… I LOVE their music and a new song is supposed to come out LITERALLY TODAY. Need this because they only have three songs out.

ANSWER TIMEEEEE if I had to give my life a snappy little sitcom title… I LITERALLY DON’T KNOW this is your hardest question yet. How about… “Obsessed!” One word, memorable, very applicable to my life (refer to the insane watchlist I dropped). It’s in the same vein as Psych (best show ever) and can you imagine the posters you could make with Obsessed! as the title? I feel like I cannot live without being obsessed with something at all times, how else am I supposed to survive The Horrors (corporate America).

And now my question for you!!! I don’t know how true this is for you, but I feel like every song has its own unique world in it. If you had to pick a song to live in, which would you choose? ALSO which of your own songs would you live in?? (Ignore the lyrics just base it on ~vibes~)I think I’d want to live in Cross the Street by Junior Varsity or Backseat Driver by BOYO OMG OR Wolf in the Breast by Cocteau Twins. And out of YOUR songs I’d want to live in apollo or running in circles… I’m actually so curious what songs you’ll choose.

I almost signed off with “Best” I’VE GONE CORPORATE…..

I LUV U!!!!!!!!!!